my thoughts in bare

There is no actual time table on when you can move forward from whatever kind of emotional pain. The wound from a fractured friendship may also fall under this things that never leave you. I have chosen to simply avoid them for a long time because it feels like it's easier to forget the pain and more comforting that time than seeing them everyday as if nothing happened. As time passed by, I have asked myself, "I should be better by now, right?" but then I always goes back to that same feeling of hurt. I came to the point of thinking that I would never ever get over from it and maybe I already lost the friendship we had. It took me years before finally realizing that I am really over it, that I really missed them, that I can't just throw away our years of friendship just like that only because of that jerk, and that I can't let him win of this battle by loosing my friends in return. I am not proud of the wasted time I have let passed by, but maybe I just neede...

You know when someone's been truly hurt if they decide to ignore someone no matter how that person tried reaching out to you. Friendship or any other kind of relationship is like a glass that's been broken, no matter how much you wanted to fix the crack it will never be the same again. All this anger I felt was bottled up inside me. I know the fact that if you hold on to much to anger it's not the person you are giving burden to, but yourself, you don't feel any peace at all. Maybe I wasn't angry at all with my friend, I am angry of what happened, I am angry because she choose to love that jerk who is responsible why our friendship has been broken, I am angry because we have to loose something great, I am angry because they moved on and that jerk was acting like he did nothing wrong, enjoying every second of his life with my friend, smiling like saying right in my face that he wins. I am angry because I was left behind with all this anger and pain. I miss m...