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so upset..

At last, we’re already done in the 10th year anniversary celebration of the company. I must say that it was a success! We almost filled the whole coliseum and the guests enjoyed the show. Prior to the event, we noticed that our immediate boss which is the marketing manager of the company was already stressed and depressed at the same time. We always hear him say all his complains in relation to the whole preparation for the event, because of this we have the slight idea what was going on.


During the event, in spite of being busy and tired because we’re part of the marketing team, we still managed to enjoy the show. We didn’t know that after all the success and enjoyment that night, there’s a bad news waiting to explode on us.


Last night, we had a meeting, my boss relay to us the reason of his depression and stress the whole time. He said that he knows we will be hurt of it, but he just want for us to know the truth. Prior to the event, he received unkind text messages from the big boss, it was full of complains & blames on our part to the extent of doubting our capabilities as a marketing team if we really can handle our job, specifically me. This is the exact words from the text messages she sent “ask your secretary if she can handle her job?” These words hurt me so much the moment I heard it from my boss, to the point of I didn’t manage to control myself that I burst out into tears in front of my co-officemates in marketing department. I’m so sensitive and stupid last night, I shouldn’t let them see I cried just because of it!!.. Up to now, I’m still hurting, those words keep on rumbling in my ears, as if I am so incompetent to my job. My boss told me that I shouldn’t be crying over it, and I shouldn’t bother myself thinking about it because he knows my capabilities well and he knows that it’s not my fault and I didn’t do any wrong. I know to myself, that I did my job. Is it unfair to put all the blame to us? In the first place, it’s not our fault if most of the guests made a reply to the RSVP very late. It’s not our fault why there are ample of tickets left.


She didn’t know the words appreciation, she just took for granted all the efforts made by her staffs. For her, she’s not satisfied of what we did. During the event, we never heard her acknowledge the managers, to think that these people served the company ever since and they are the ones who really contributed to the growth of the company. It’s okay to us if she didn’t acknowledge us, but these people including my boss deserves more than a simple thank you. She just learned to congratulate my boss the day after the event, after she heard some good comments from her friends regarding the success of the show.

Perhaps, I must also understand her that maybe she is also stressed of the upcoming event, she worries too much whether it would be a success.


In fairness to my immediate boss, he treats us well, from a short period of time I worked here in this company, he never treats us as one of his subordinates, it is as if we’re on the same level. All along, he tried to protect us.

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