my thoughts in bare

Sometimes, my mind is such a mess when I'm trying to get a sleep at night. I do a lot of thinking of different things which leads me to overthinking.. These are things my mind usually thinks of.. I play scenes in my head which I don't know if it's possible to happen. I ask myself a lot of questions.  I think about all my endless "what ifs" I think about all the people I love and loved.  I think about all the people I miss. I think about all the people I hate and miss at the same time.  I think about my plans for the next day. I think about my dreams, where I am today, or am I closer to it as of now? I think of all the things I want to do alone for a change, but having a second thought if I can really do it. 

Why does some people raised eyebrows about working in a BPO industry like it was a bad thing? http://wikipidea.org Business process outsourcing  ( BPO ) is a subset of  outsourcing  that involves the  contracting  of the operations and responsibilities of a specific  business process  to a third-party service provider. Okay, I understand everyone has dreamed or expected that they would eventually get a job that fits what they had studied back in college or preferably somewhat related to their degree of fields. There's nothing wrong about that, by the way! But, I think it's not right to denigrate those working in BPO industry without knowing what it feels like and the perks of working there. I've been working in two different BPO companies for almost seven years now. I may not be in my dream job or something I am passionate to work with, but how many of us have come to land in their dream job? I am not the only one.. Ironically, most of the popu...

Who would have thought I could do it on my own? I doubt it myself too. Before, I always wanted to try to live by myself but I never had the chance to really do it or shall I say I don't have the courage to do it back then. I was so used to my mama  who's always there beside me and attending to all my needs, even when I started working. My sister would always tease me how will I survive if mama was not there, that I'm sarap-buhay type.. Everyday, I woke up in the morning with my breakfast ready and my clothes to wear was neatly folded or hanged, that all I have to do is get up and ready for work. Surely, I know how to cook simply because I have interest in cooking that's why I learned how to at an early age. But when it comes to washing clothes, that's a big NO, NO for me. They would always tell me that eventually I'll get married and will have my own family that's why I have to learn it. Bottomline is, I am too dependent to my  mama.  Sometimes, we real...

My long weekend has been prolonged more than I expected, I was on sick leave since Sept. 02 due to conjunctivitis. So, instead of stressing myself when will my eyes get well fully, I'll take this as a chance to get all the sleep I want or need, which has been deprived to us for the past four months being on a night shift schedule. As what my friend said, consider it as being in a "staycation" only just at home not in some fancy hotels. Well atleast I got myself rest for a while and free from all the stress from work. This is what happened when boredom strikes.. played my camera phone and took some selfies.. hahahaha.. :))

Some people never understand my fondness on reading a book. I even found myself keeping secret when buying books, making sure the price tag was neatly removed and receipts were put in trash.. it's because I had these feeling some people may not understand me spending money on books when there are more other things to be priorized or more valuable than it. Here are the list I think only book lovers would understand.. We know the uniqueness of a book. We know it will always be different than any other movie adaptation. It's not that we want to criticize those movies, we know that they had put a lot of work for that. They would never understand our disappointment when our expectations wasn't met after watching the movie knowing we had read the book. Having a hard copy.  Nowadays, reading any books you want is so easy thru ebooks, ipad, kindle, etc. I admit, I've been a fan of ebooks for some time, as my budget limits me from buying books most of the time. ...

If only I could do it in just snap or just after reading any article about letting go of resentment, then I'll be very, very happy.. really! No one wants to be a slave of any negative feelings towards other. Our emotions is something beyond our control. We can't force ourselves into something we're not ready yet or shall I say into something our hearts doesn't want to. No matter what other people say or how much we knew how to, we'll never be able to overcome it until ourselves do it willingly on it's own. As the old saying goes, " time heals all wounds." So I guess, I'd rely on that.. I don't know if what I'm doing is right but all I know is, this is what I need right now. I just know that I need to distance myself, so I won't be stressing myself everytime we meet, so I don't need to pretend like nothing is wrong.. I'm so done in pretending.. I need some peace of mind for a while.. though, I don't know how long would i...