contemplating after 24 years of my life..

As I look back for the past 24 years of life, although life hasn't been that good to me I must say that I'm still thankful that despite of all struggles and pain before I'm still here standing proud that I was able to surpassed it all.

I used to complain about life being unfair whenever things go wrong, when things didn't happen the way I wanted it to be or when I feel hopeless and weak with all the happenings in my life. Some other times I was questioning God why it has to happen to me or what was really His plans for me.. but I realized that it was wrong, I should never doubt Him. He has reasons, everything happens for a reason.I may never know the reasons behind it but maybe I should just lay it all down to Him, anyway He knows what's right for me.

Like everyone else, sometimes I wanted the easy way out just to get what I want but nobody said that life is easy. I realized if there's an easy way for everything we won't feel any accomplishment anymore because we don't have to work hard for it. One more thing, this is the truth about life: " Not all we want is right for us that's why we can never get all we want."

This year at the age of 25, I won't promise that I would stop complaining but this is what I am sure of.. I am more stronger and wiser than before.. and I owe it from all from what I've been through.

I'm now looking forward for a great life ahead.. LESS mistakes but MORE happiness.. ^_^

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