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For several years, I used to ignore what I really want for myself and prioritized my responsibilities to my family. Every time I bought something for myself I used to feel guilty thinking I should've spend it for my family instead.

For the first time in my life, someone made me realized that sometimes having yourself a little importance and letting yourself get what you really want isn’t such a bad idea after all. It’s amazing how it’s fairly easy for her to push me in what I want. Maybe she’s not aware of it, but she really don’t know how much influence she have or how her actions affect mine. Actually, I was a little bit surprised how my mom was happy to know that I gave in for myself and told me that I totally deserved it.

We've been teammates even before when we were still in first touch platform, but we never noticed the existence of each other. Who would have thought that she’ll play an important role in my life? With her, I can be me. She doesn’t have to be rich, brilliant or perfect… just her being that caring, thoughtful and her sense of humor is enough. No dull moment ever when I’m with her.

To the person who was there the first time I was admitted to the hospital, who was always there during my lowest moment cheering me up and still here, who brought out the best in me and to the one who made a big difference in my life without knowing it… Thank you!!!... ^_^






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