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just a dream..

Last night, I dreamed of him once again. This is the second time I’ve dreamed of him, the last time has been so long. I didn’t think of him last night before I sleep, and it’s been so long since the last time I thought of him. I don’t know why, this dreams helps nothing but leave me confuse. What’s behind that dream? I don’t know if this would help but I managed to seek for an answer through internet, I know how ridiculous this is but I don’t have someone to talk to about this. So here it is:


According to http://www.hyperdictionary.com/dream


“Seeing an old ex-boyfriend from childhood in your dream, refers to a freer, less encumbered relationship. The dream servers to bring you back to a time where the responsibilities of adulthood (or marriage) didn't interfere with the spontaneity of romance. You need to recapture the excitement, freedom, and vitality of youth that is lacking in your present relationship. Dreaming that your ex-boyfriend is giving you advice about your current relationship, suggests that you unconscious is telling you not to repeat the same mistakes that you had made with this ex-boyfriend. Dreaming that you are being massaged by your ex-boyfriend, suggests that you need to let go of some of that defensiveness that you have been putting forth. You may have been putting up a wall or armor around you. You need to learn to trust people again. Dreaming that you ex-boyfriend gives you a stuffed animal, suggests that you are seeking for reassuring and nurturing aspects of a relationship. This is not to imply that you want you ex-boyfriend back. Alternatively, the dream could represent some immature relationship which may (or may not) describe the relationship you had with your ex. Dreaming that you see your ex-boyfriend dressed in a suit at a hospital, suggests that you have come to terms with that relationship and have completed the healing process. “


I don’t think if the other part of the meaning applies to me so I highlighted the one in red which I think could probably applies to me. Anyway, just for the information, our love story never had a closure, maybe at least for me, I don’t know for him.. As I mentioned on my previous blog, I broke up with him without telling him the truth why I made that decision. There are so many unanswered questions within me because of that break up. Some would question me why bother to think of all this, anyway it’s been so long and for the fact that I know practically that I don’t want him anymore back to my life for some reasons, that I want something more to my life which I know that I wouldn’t get if I’m with him but still, I can’t help myself but to think.


Anyway, here is my dream about:


I was with my sister buying something in a store, while waiting for the things we bought I’m also chatting with someone I didn’t know in my dream and the topic of our discussion is that I’m sharing with him my love story with my ex-boyfriend. When suddenly, he came then said these words “kung sana hinde tayo ngkahiwalay d sana hnggang ngayon tayo pa rin, ikaw kc eh”, these words hurt me so much in that dream. After that, he invite me to come with him so that we could talk, my sister let me to come with him, she said anyway we really have to talk to clear things out. We went in his friend’s house, he showed to me how his life has gone by. From there, I saw that his life has not been good. He doesn’t have a stable job and he just live with his friend. From the sight of this, I realized there that that is not the life I wanted if I was with him. Then when he was starting to talk about us, I decided to go and leave once again..


There’s something I realized this morning because of this dream, that even in dreams I’m still afraid to talk about it and one thing for sure I don’t want him anymore in my life if ever our path cross again. I cant give up my dreams in life just for him, that’s why I don’t want to think anymore whatever feelings I may still have for him.


Anyway, it’s just a dream!



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