my thoughts in bare

Shocks!.. Until when will I be financially broke??.. I have lots of obligations in my family and I don't know how will I budget my salary for all of that. Classes will start soon, and yet I haven't paid the tuition fee of my younger brother for this school year. Aside from that, bills are waiting for me. :( I haven't recovered yet with all the medical expenses I made last month because of my severe cough and tonsillitis. waaaahhhh .. so stress! I hate this feeling!.. These is one of the few moments in my life when I am being pissed off because I don't know what to do anymore. It could be different. Maybe even a little easier for me if only.. haaaay .. I'm not perfect. Sometimes, I feel so tired and hopeless being a breadwinner and all that but who am I to complain?.. I know it's wrong but I only feel it when I'm so stress. Some said, it wouldn't be hard if you're doing it out of love and not seeing it as an obligation. It's just so ...

I'm such a coward person. I'm sorry mama, if I have to spend my weekend in a friend's house. I just can't stand to see you cry every hour of the day. I can't face you and look straight to your eyes because I am afraid you'll see how much I am hurting inside too. I'm sorry because I can't do anything to ease the pain in your heart. If only a hug could cure it, I would hug you so tight. I'm sorry because I can't even show you my sympathy because I'm afraid you'll see me burst in tears just like you did. I'm sorry for all the pain they caused you, from kuya , then ate .. and now Gary. I can't blame you, it's like bringing all the pain from the past which you tried to forget for the past years. Like you said, it's like you've been betrayed for three times by your children with the same reasons. I know how frustrated you are and papa for what they did in their life, when all you wanted is for us to finish our studies and h...

When I was still working in Let's Face It, I remember I usually have my weekly manicure and pedicure for free. It's because, the training center for the salon's attendants is just located in the 2nd floor of the office. Manicure and pedicure are just one of the few benefits of pampering yourself for free as an employee there. Nowadays, I usually had my pedicure done once or twice a month in a parlor nearby our home, this time I have to pay for it. But, I don't usually have my hands to be manicured, I just don't think it's practical because the nail polish on my hands gets damaged easily. So, what I did is just have my nails in my hands manicured all by myself, that way I won't have to pay over and over again if ever I needed a nail polish retouch.Yes, I can do it. :) Today, my nails are colored by pink lilac nail polish. So love it !.. :D I am not comfortable and confident enough about having a nail polish in my hands before especially those ...

It's good that you have lots of friends but I think the disadvantage about it is that you don't know how will you divide your time for all of them when each of them wants to go out with you and have some bonding time. Besides, going out out every now and then means " expenses " .. I can't afford to loose my everyday allowance to work if I would go out frequently. normie and me closed friend from my previous work @ SPI closed friends from wave 18c Accenture jayan, mariz and pia ken and elehm Accenture friends Accenture friends elehm, amie, pia, diane and chamsy tyne and me in Bagiuo City she's my friend from my previous work @ LET'S FACE IT daisy, sheila, weng & michelle my college friends daisy and aimee, my best buddies during my college days lhen and apple high school friends my bestfriend Lea when I was in 1st year high school Please don't get me wrong. I missed you...

If there's a person whom I considered as my bestfriend during my elementary days, that would be Marianne. I can't remember exactly what grade are we in that time, maybe it's either grade four or five. Actually, we also have other friend named Fatima, we're like tres marias. It's been years ago.. I still remember them but it never occurred in my mind to find them on Facebook. Marianne added me on Facebook last night. As I saw her name, I instantly remembered her, it's like old memories that we're together came flashing on my mind. We chatted and exchanged numbers. I've learned that she's been married for four years but she doesn't have kids yet. We've sent also a friend request to Fatima and I hope she will accept it soon. I'm so excited to hear from her too. We're planning to meet again. I wanted to put a picture of us when we're just a kid, but I couldn't find one. I wish I already had a camera phone back then.. :( ...

Last April 17, 2012, I happened to read the message from the Facebook application GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW .. " On this day, God wants you to know that difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept of other perspectives on life. " What if I can no longer tolerate someone's attitude and I can't stand being with that person anymore? That someone happens to be the person who used to be my friend. Does that mean I failed to the test of God? I admit, I used to enjoy her company and that we have lots of happy moments together before. But those were the times that I am still patient with all her mood swings, childish ways and being closed-mindedness. Those were the times that I can still tolerate everything about her that makes me annoyed. ...

One of my goals this year is to pursue work abroad . I have sent so many applications online since January but I haven't received any response until now. Today is my another attempt to try to get a work abroad. I saw their ads last night, since I am on a vacation leave, I went to this agency just this afternoon. The job posting is for front office position to be deployed in Canada. They didn't indicate in the list of qualifications that an applicant should have a work experience in a hotel. So I assumed that I am still qualified for the position although my previous work experience is not exactly as the front office staff, I believe I am still capable to do the duties and responsibilities of the said position because part of my job before is also like a front office staff in Marketing Department. After the interview, they just told me that they will call me or text me as soon as my application is considered. haaaays ... I always wanted to work abroad. That's m...