just some thoughts after ages?..

Oh my!.. it's been ages since the last time I wrote something here in my blog.. haaayz.. 


These past few weeks, I really had this feeling of missing "blogging".. but then I can't find time alone for my thoughts.. My work schedule now doesn't allow me to have some extra time for doing things I used to do.


i remember, when I'm still at my previous work, I have lots time of doings things I want to do like these.. blogging.. reading.. chatting with my friend online.. surfing the net.. everything I want.. even during my work. Like I used to say before, I'm always on the "pethics mode" back there, it's because of the nature of my work. Until one day, I felt like I'm so bored to the point of resigning from my work there and started to find a job where I can be more productive. 


Now, I'm almost working for a year here in my new work. I'd like to think if I am successful with what I am looking for when I started to think of leaving my previous work. 


first.. before, I wanted to have a more compensated job so that I would be able to help more my family. Yes, a more compensated job compared before, but then I'm still not satisfied, still NOT ENOUGH for such obligations. But of course, I'm still thankful despite of that, like I said "compared before.. "


next.. I wanted to be more productive and more useful.. I don't want anymore a "no-brainy" job like other say, because in my previous work, you don't have to exert extra effort to do your job, it's just a typical admin-office task. More productive?.. YES!.. because you have to do your very best everyday to meet your productivity and quality targets set by the client. 


Nevertheless, I'm not saying that I don't enjoy my work in my previous job. Because at some point of time, I really did enjoy my work there. I can say that being busy there is like "seasonal". There's just a time when we have to really work. Also, i have some good memories back there plus having myself pampered for free because of the nature of the business.


But now, I can't even afford to have a normal sleep or to have some leisure time to enjoy or do things I want to do. Having a 4-5 hours of sleep everyday is something that you should be thankful of.. especially, when the company pushes production and we have to process health claims more than what we are expected to everyday because of the client demands. 


I just realized.. that we can never be satisfied with everything we want. Because whenever you achieved something, you are about to sacrificed something too and start to want something more than you wanted before.. 


that's it for today.. i hope i could find time to do things like this again.. ^_^