goodbye for now auntie .. :(

Life is short. We'll never know until when are we going to live in this world. This is something beyond our control. No matter how badly we want to live more if it's really the end, then it's really the end..

Last August 26, 2012 at around 2am. Auntie Caring's life has come to end. She passed away due to her breast cancer as I mentioned to my previous post. I've seen her struggle to fight for her life since the time she was diagnosed last 2010 and up until to her last few days. I was there during her last few hours. It pains me to think that up until her last days she keeps on saying that she still want to live. 

We'll surely miss her. I knew her since my childhood. She lives nearby our home before. She was there for us during the most time of our lives. She was there for me during those times when I am totally depressed regarding family matters, she listened to me when I cried that time.

I'll miss those times when I'm just there at her mini sari-sari store just chatting and eating merienda with her. Biko (rice cake) and icecream was her all-time favorites. When we transferred to other place to live, we often took time to visit her even before she wasn't sick yet. It really felt good to me visiting her and bringing any food for her before, especially those surprise visits I've made, bringing food that she actually craves for that specific day. 

Now that she's gone, I, myself will really miss her. 

" Auntie, wherever you are now I hope that you''re happy and in peace. May God bless your soul. Please don't worry anymore to us, especially us your nieces, nephews and grandchildren. I know you love us all.. we're already grown up now, we'll take care each other. Please leave behind all your sadness, hatred or any negative emotions you've had. Take a rest now, you've suffered enough. At least now, you'll no longer feel pain. Thank you very much for everything you've done for us. 

I don't want to say goodbye to you, maybe in God's time we'll meet again. You will always be remembered by us, your family. We love you so much. We will miss you. "

Fight for Life..

“Mercy killing is defined as the killing of one person by another. The victim of mercy killing is normally in the vegetable state or has an injury or illness that cannot be cured, as it is usually in its last stage. The victim experiences immensely painful last days just before his or her death. For a voluntary case of mercy killing to take place, the killer must first obtain the consent of the victim, but there have been recorded cases of mercy killing against the wishes of the victim as well.

This is known as involuntary mercy killing. Mercy killing is known as euthanasia. The victim of a mercy killing dies a painless death after suffering an incurable ailment or serious injury. The term euthanasia, which means mercy killing, is derived from the Greek word for 'good death'. Euthanasia has been legalised in some Western countries but is still considered to be an unethical practice in the Third World.”

http://www.blurtit.com/q495504.html

My auntie, the youngest sister of my father was diagnosed of stage three breast cancer last 2010. She’s been fighting for almost two years now, undergoing some treatments and medications but unfortunately I think it has come to an end.

It’s hard for us as her family to just watch her in her every single day struggle to fight for her life. In her condition right now, we can’t do anything to take away the pain she is suffering, even the doctors can’t do anything but to give her some pain reliever, but most of the time, even those pain relievers are not enough.

The end is near. Anytime from now she’ll be gone from us. Every day, her time is ticking to its end. Nobody knows until when, that’s what the doctors said to us. All we need is a MIRACLE, a great miracle from GOD. Although, we already knew the truth about her life status, I am still afraid for that time to come. Until now, I still can’t believe that these things are really happening to my beloved auntie. She doesn’t deserve to suffer like that.

One of her siblings wants to have her euthanasia, just to end those painful days of her. We all can’t stand to witness her suffering from that, and yet we want her to keep on fighting and hope that she’ll be able to recover from that illness. Even me, I can’t let her undergo that so-called euthanasia.  I don’t want her to let go of that little hope she’s been holding on all this time that maybe GOD would see her fighting and still believing that maybe she could still live more years with us. If she still wants to fight for her life despite of all the pain she’s experiencing, who are we to decide to stop her FIGHT? Everything happens for a reason. If this is really her time to go, if this is really GOD wants to happen, then be it. Maybe we might as well wait for whatever GOD plans to happen for her life.

The only thing we want now, if that’s really the case.. Please GOD have mercy on her. Please take away all the pain she’s suffering. Please bless her soul. Please take away all the anger, hatred or whatever negative emotions she might have holding on right now, instead replace it with acceptance, love and peace in her heart. 

Papemelroti

Papemelroti is a specialty shop which carries a wide variety of gifts and decorative accessories.
~~  http://papemelroti.blogspot.com/

Papemelroti features handcrafted products to treasure forever. From wood to metal to cloth, we strive to make products that only have a minimal impact on the environment.
~~ http://www.papemelroti.com/ 

I already noticed that shop before but it never did occur in my mind that I would appreciate whatever stuffs that are stored in there. Until one day, my friend and I passed by in one of their shop in SM Megamall, I really like all the stuffs they are offering from simple gifts, souvenirs, decorations, scrapbook materials to accessories, etc. Most of their products are made from recycled materials which turns out to be a very good buy in an affordable prices.

From then on, I'm now fond of visiting their shop everytime we are in the mall.  Actually, I bought a notebook from there that would be as my draft in writing blogs wherever I am.^_^



loosing weight

It was April 2012, when I decided to finally start my diet seriously until I loose enough weights and fats. I cut out eating too much rice, sweets and NO to fast foods. I don't eat rice meals during breakfast and lunch. I only eat wheat bread, oatmeal, fruits or vegetable salads during dinner.

Most of the time, I wasn't observant and conscious enough to notice that I am already gaining or loosing weight, only until people noticed it. Eventually, when more and more people around me noticed the change in me, that's the only time would I began to realized that I am already loosing or gaining weight because my shirts and pants doesn't fit to me well.

Before and After

 I am happy with the results of my determination to loose some weight. The only catch now is will I be able to maintain and continue what I have started?.. :)





wondering why LIKE ??..

Gosh !.. It's been a while since I had my last post.. I got problem with my laptop last June that's why I've been out in the world of blogging and social networking sites for some time. choz !..

Anyway, I am lucky enough tonight to use my friend's laptop, and because of that I decided use this time to make up. :D

For the past 2 months, I was satisfied (or I must say I wasn't, it's just that I have to be content on that for a while because I don't have a choice) with using facebook mobile just to be still aware on what was happening. I tried to keep on being active on facebook even through my fone, by constantly updating my status although sometimes I think some of it were non-sense. Just a while ago, I was a little bit shocked upon noticing that my "ex" LIKED my status updates specifically referring with the idea of me having an eye or liking someone else. I don't know, it doesn't hurt anymore, I don't feel any anger towards him anymore just like before, but I was a little uneasy or somehow annoyed with the thought that  it's okay to him the fact that I really had moved on and me, liking someone else. I can still remember, I think that was February to March of this year that he was constantly sending me an email asking for my number, begging for another chance and asking for a date, but I declined it all. The chance he was asking for was the chances I already gaved to him a long time ago, which he just wasted. I just can't let myself caught in that same situation and still he can't compromise or even gave me an assurance what I am in his life and where would our so-called relationship would go.

I don't know.. I can't explain clearly why I am annoyed in some way. What do I expect??.. That he still want me after all these years?.. That's silly!.. To think that I declined him months ago..

I wish I could read his mind.