Open Book

Sometimes it is much easier to be an open book to your friend than to your family. Sharing stories, your emotions, and even discussing sensitive issues are very rare moments with me and my sister. So, because of the long weekend I had the opportunity to open myself to her. We talked a lot of things while dipping in the inflatable pool last night, while having a shower together which is the very first time and while having manicure and pedicure tonight. In a way, it made me feel more comfortable to open such things to her and vice-versa. I think it bridged the gap between us, just when we thought we really knew each other well, truth is we still have a lot of things we didn't know about each other...

Feel the heat of summer!.. :)

Feeling the heat of summer? Can't go to the beach? Why not indulge yourself to have fun and go dip in an inflatable pool just like what kids do. :)

Large inflatable swimming pool are great alternatives if you can't go to the beach resort or in some conventional swimming pools during summer. But before that, everyone should consider the safety of the children so it's not advisable to let the children swmming alone, there should always have the supervision of any adults in the family to avoid any accidents.

So instead of getting bored baby sitting my niece and nephew while they play in the water, we indulged ourselves playing with them. Non-stop swimming during afternoons and evenings before going to sleep to ease the heat! A very well spent long weekend!.. :)

In time..

You know when someone's been truly hurt if they decide to ignore someone no matter how that person tried reaching out to you.

Friendship or any other kind of relationship is like a glass that's been broken, no matter how much you wanted to fix the crack it will never be the same again. All this anger I felt was bottled up inside me. I know the fact that if you hold on to much to anger it's not the person you are giving burden to, but yourself, you don't feel any peace at all.

Maybe I wasn't angry at all with my friend, I am angry of what happened, I am angry because she choose to love that jerk who is responsible why our friendship has been broken, I am angry because we have to loose something great, I am angry because they moved on and that jerk was acting like he did nothing wrong, enjoying every second of his life with my friend, smiling like saying right in my face that he wins. I am angry because I was left behind with all this anger and pain.

I miss my friend..really! I miss the old days, the laughters, chats, bonding moments, out of town trips, everything... We've been friends since college and we lost it in just one snap. I was hurt and I know she was hurt too.. She tried reaching out in anyway she could but to no avail. I pushed her out of my life to avoid the chances of seeing her with him and because I don't want to pretend anymore in front of other people like nothing happened.

It was over two years ago, but until now I find myself crying over what we had to loose because of that jerk, crying over how it made me feel, how I felt betrayed because I know deep within her she has doubts to me because she choosed to believe him.

I wasn't ready to forgive him..anyway he acts like he was innocent. Maybe in time I would, but I will never forget what happened and how it made me feel.