why oh why ??..

I’m tired of explaining myself. I’m not perfect. There are times that I am clumsy or dumb in some of my ways like decision-making, that it’s too late to realize that someone was hurt because of my actions when in the first place, I do not intend to hurt anybody, it just that I’m so confuse and I don’t know what to do. Sometimes, I’m so captivated with everything that’s happening around me that I tend to neglect some people because I decided to be in favor of someone else, then again they will start sulking at me.

Why is it always like that? Why is it we always have to think first and consider someone else’s feeling before doing anything? When will be time that I can do all I want or decide for anything that no one will get hurt in the end? Can’t we just do anything without hurting anybody? Why can’t I do whatever that makes me happy or things I consider to be the best, and just hope that everyone around me will be happy for me.  Am I being selfish because of this kind of thinking? Is the old saying “you can’t please everyone” applies to this?

I miss you. I miss them. I miss those people I’ve unintentionally hurt because of my actions. I’m so sad because I think I am starting to lose the person who’s been so good to me from the day I knew her. I tried to reach out but to no avail. I think I’m doing my best to reach her but I think it wasn’t enough. I’m tired of explaining. I’m tired of saying sorry, because I’m afraid saying it constantly would be non-sense and would just erase the true meaning of it. I’m afraid to be ignored forever. 

I’m so stupid! I feel so sorry for myself and for what happened. Wish I can do something to make it right. :((

wish list

Gypsy Rose GRA1K Acoustic Guitar

Cost: Php 4,100.00

Where to buy: JB Music Harrison Plaza Branch

I always wanted to learn to play guitar, but how will I learn if I don’t have one. Solution?.. Buy one, hopefully soon. I wish someone out there would be nice to give this to me as a gift. ^_^ 

http://www.jbmusic.com.ph/product/details/gypsy-rose-gra1k-acoustic-guitar-package

Bloodlines by Richelle Mead

The Golden Lily by Richelle Mead

Cost: Php 399.00 each

Where to buy: any National Bookstore Branch

Another spin-off series from the Vampire Academy series which means another addiction to books.  :)

Bicycle

I’ve been eyeing a bicycle for quite some time now. I don’t know yet how much will it cost or where to buy. I love biking. My purpose for that is because I heard that it’s also one way of exercising. ^_^ 

Portable Laptop Table

Cost: Php 380 – 580

Where to buy: any CD-r king shop

I really need this for my laptop. I’m always having a back ache for not having a table and a comfortable position while using my laptop. This is just what I need, affordable and convenient to use.

That’s all for now, I’m still thinking for any additional in my wish list. ^_^

a bit late for "Dear John"

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dear_John_(2010_film)

" Dear John is a 2010 American romantic drama-war film starring Amanda Seyfried and Channing Tatum. It was released theatrically in North America on February 5, 2010. The film was directed by Lasse Hallström, and it is an adaptation of Nicholas Sparks's novel of the same name. It follows the life of a soldier (Channing Tatum) after he falls in love with a young woman (Amanda Seyfried). They decide to exchange letters to each other after he is deployed to the war. The movie was filmed in 2009 in Charleston, South Carolina. "

Again, this is definitely not a book review nor a movie review. This is just my random thoughts after reading the book last week and watching the movie yesterday. 

I know I am bit late for this, as this movie was released two years ago and the book was released last 2006. I really want to read it years ago but for some reasons it's just a few days ago that I finally took time to read it.  And I'm glad I made it!.. :)

I was really touched on how the story goes. It doesn't dwell only to the love story of John and Savannah, but also to the father and son relationship between John and his father. Nicholas Sparks is really good in writing novels like this. I felt the emotions of the characters. I actually cried while reading it. Every pages of it is really a must read, that you can't stop yourself reading every detail of it. There was never a dull moment in each chapter. I was able to finish reading it for two nights only after arriving at home from work. :)

After reading it, I decided to watch it's movie more seriously. It's not because I wanted to compare the difference between the book and the movie. (Although, most of the time there's always a difference between the book versions and movie versions, and the book versions are much better than movies.) I'm just curious.. since, I haven't watch it before. Yes, I have watched some scenes of it, but the not the full movie. 

Honestly, I like the book of Dear John than it's movie. As I said, books are better than movies. :)