career change?..

My career has been in a standstill for quite a while now, I no longer get any satisfaction from my work, and maybe it’s time for me to make a career change. Making a career change can be a difficult task and it may feel like I will be turning my life upside down, because I will not do anymore whatever I used to do before but, in the end, I may actually end up turning my life right-side up. It is also possible for me that I could end up with a career that is moving in the right direction -- forward.

Honestly, the number one factor why I was thinking about this is because of the salary I’m getting from my present work. It’s never been enough for sustaining my needs alone, what more to the needs of my family which is my obligation to provide for them. Haaaayzz… It’s been weeks now that my brother was convincing me to get another job, I know his reasons, he had to shoulder most of the responsibilities at home because I can’t help him enough. I understand him well with that. That’s why, I easily gave in with his idea to apply and get another job, although I really don’t know if I can do it. He wants me to try to apply as management trainee in a well-known fast food chain here; he said that it would be better to have a job in operations than being stuck here in the office and without any benefits at all. I know it’s not good for thinking negatively but I doubt myself if I can really make my application with it. But my brother keeps on encouraging me that I can really do it. waaah.. I hate too much expectation from them. On how he said it “kaya mo un!”.. as if he’s really sure about it.

Tomorrow is the day of my application, my brother will go with me there in Ortigas head office, ensuring that I will actually apply there. And maybe to give me some tips, guidance and support.. hahaha.. well, he knows it better than me because he is an assistant manager in another well-known fast food locally and internationally. May the Lord guide me for this.. One more thing, I don’t know what will I tell my boss as an excuse for being absent tomorrow.. haaaayz… He’s too nice to all of us that I can’t bare to lie to him but I have to.. He’s already getting paranoid with the rest of us that we will leave him sooner or later since the day when my co-officemate filed her resignation.

breathe gracie..

My life has been an open book for everyone around me especially to my family and friends. I used to tell them whatever happens to me, that’s why keeping secrets to them is hard for me.

Even to my friends, I feel that I always have to tell them what’s happening to me. But this time maybe because of some circumstances, I don’t know how will I tell them. I know, at this moment some of them notice something but afraid to ask me or maybe they are almost dying now to know what’s happening to me. As of now, I still don’t have the courage to tell them especially in details but I know sooner or later they will ask and needed to know. I’m not comfortable like explaining myself, it was very embarrassing on my part.

There is just one person yet who knows everything, (well, not everything.. ^_^), I didn’t manage to make stories and lie to her. Telling her has been so hard for me, hahaha.. I needed to just email it to her although we’re already chatting that moment, I can’t stand to talk about it directly to her and hear her opinion. But deep in me, although afraid to know what she says about it, I’m still waiting for her to say something about it.. her word is important to me..

With regards to my family, especially them, I know they needed to know. But not now, it’s too early for it. I have to take things slow and easy. These again, will take me a lot of courage. I know, all this time, they’re waiting for this to happen.. hahaha.. but still, I can’t tell them yet, their opinion about it is what I’m afraid most to hear.

haaayzz...

Sometimes things happened in our life not in the way we wanted, expected or planned. I did not intend this to happen to me so soon and fast. I’ve never been so confused in myself and how I feel like this before. It is as if I don’t know anymore what to think and feel. I don’t know anymore if this is me. I used to take things slow and easy, but this time I don’t know anymore what and why did it happen. With a short span of time, I’m willing to take risk and try things to work out even though I don’t really know where I’m up to...

it's been a while..

For these past few weeks, I’ve been thinking on what to write or post here on my blog, unfortunately nothing comes to my mind. It’s been a long time since I made my last post, I’m now thinking if I already lost my passion on writing of my thoughts. I hope not!.. But, in those weeks of contemplating what to write, my interest turns to spending time in reading maybe that’s why I wasn’t able to make anything. I actually read different books everyday which is sometimes confusing on what should I want to finish first.. ^_^ The other day, I just finished reading the third book of Twilight, Eclipse. After reading that, I can’t wait anymore to finally read the fourth book of it which is the Breaking Dawn, unfortunately I can’t do it as of now because I haven’t bought yet that book, that was very upsetting on my part. Then, I indulge myself again into reading other books, I tried to reread again the “Two Table by Nora Roberts”, one of my collections, I’m almost on the latter part of the story when finally my sister brought back my book of “Blood Promise” , the fourth sequel of Vampire Academies. Then in an instant, I set aside reading the book I’ve been reading then started to read the one brought by my sister.

I’m also been busy in work that’s why it took me weeks to post this one. As of now, I’m done reading the “Blood Promise”, and I have to continue reading again the “Two Table”. I hope I would be able to finish it this week and start to write more blogs again.