Who's That Girl ?..

I haven’t read a book again for some time now. The last book I read was the Vampire Academy series.

My next book project to read :

Who’s that Girl ?.. – Alexandra Potter
I haven’t started reading it yet. Maybe, after the holidays.

So for now, here’s the short excerpt from the book ..

“ If only you knew then what you know now ...

Imagine if you could go back ten years and meet your younger self – would you recognise her ? What advice would you give ?

* Wear sunscreen
* Back away from those PVC trousers
* Don’t give that idiot your phone number
* Lemon juice won't bleach your hair - it just attracts wasps
* He’s the One – don’t let him get away

For Charlotte Merryweather, there’s no need to imagine. She’s about to find out for real. With some surprising consequences ...

Alexandra Potter’s deliciously enchanting romantic comedy looks at life, love and what might happen if you could turn back time.”

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This sounds interesting to me, the first time I saw this book I knew then that I really want to read this. The story of it was something close to reality when you’re in the point of your life thinking about “what if’s .. if only ..” but you can’t do anything about it.

I was once asked by someone if given a chance to turn back time, would I turn back to change, undo or improve what happened from the past ?.. I don’t know.. but come to think of it .. what if we could and meet our younger self ?.. What will we do ?..

the past ..

It's been eight months since we had a talk. I intentionally cut - off all the means of communication we had. I created a barrier between us. It's my way of helping myself , so that I could finally move on , without returning to him and accepting him over and over again. I know , I succeeded on that.

I'm now okay, I really am .. All the anger , sadness and bitterness has gone.

For the past eight months , I had a real good time with my family and friends , like going out with my siblings and my mother during weekend .. movie marathon with them and other things .. things I never did when we're together. I renewed friendships with old friends whom I thought I'll never be friends again .. I made new friends as well which is a good thing. I have now a larger circle of friends .. FRIENDS , when I thought I had no one before ..

Then , last week , he's adding me as friend on Facebook. Yesterday , I received an offline messages [YM] from him thru my phone. He just said hi and asking how am i doing. I never had a chance to reply on him because I'm not online during that time .. and if ever I was , I don't know if I could reply or maybe because I don't know what to say. It's funny because I am feeling a little coward when in fact it's not me who had a mistake and had hurt someone. Me and my friend made a joke about it , that he's just missing me because Christmas is coming in a few more days. I'd rather think that he's really sorry for what he'd done than to think that he's trying to use his charm to fool me again that's why he's checking on me. SILLY ME !!..

Anyway , one thing I am sure of myself right now. I don't want him near me again. I already forgave him but it doesn't mean that I would communicate with him again. Friendship with him is really out of the question between us.

supposedly .. :(

** [ Late post ]

December 01, 2011
- I am supposedly on my flight to Zamboanga to attend my friend' wedding. I didn't book a flight because of the pending approval of my vacation leaves on my work. I thought it was hopeless , that they will not approve it because of the current situation in the office. Then all of a sudden , it was approved !.. but it's soooo TOO LATE !!..

I don't know how will I react on it. It's nice that I could rest and relax during my long weekend , but to think of my ruined planned trip to Zamboanga and Jolo ?.. grrrrrr ... IT SUCKS !!.. It's too late ! I couldn't make it anymore. I wish it's just nearby so I could go there .. but NO .. it's miles away from Manila. In addition to that , I already use my supposedly budget for my trip to other things because I thought I'll never be able to go there.

Now , I don't know how will I spend my long , long weekend other sleeping ..

a letter to a friend

I think it's more than 2 weeks now since we last talked .. I miss our small talks , our laughs .. everything !

If I have to say sorry to you a thousand times .. i would .. i mean it ..

Sometimes , i think i'm just being paranoid and exaggerating things .. but i think not .. this is not usual anymore ..

I know and understand that your upcoming wedding is a very special event in your life .. so special that you wanted so badly that special people in your life would be there for you to share it with .. And I am so grateful and thankful that you consider me as one of those .. We've been friends for so many years , we manage to keep our friendship despite of distance , and i am happy with that .. You've been a part of my everyday life , it's like there something missing if a day or week passed by without having a talk with you ..

I don't wanna let you down .. i don't intend to .. but I already did .. I feel sorry for that ..

I already told you this before .. i know you knew how much i wanted to come to your wedding .. you know how excited I am the moment you told me about it .. I don't know anymore how to explain myself to you .. explaining it to you over and over again is non - sense .. it wouldn't change a thing .. still , i couldn't come .. i'm sad about it because I will not be there to witness your once in a lifetime happiness ..

My sister told me to give you time but i miss you so much my friend .. please talk to me ..

I'm sorry for disappointing you .. I'm sorry for giving some burden before your wedding ..

I'M SORRY .. I MISS YOU .. :(

just some thoughts after ages?..

Oh my!.. it's been ages since the last time I wrote something here in my blog.. haaayz.. 


These past few weeks, I really had this feeling of missing "blogging".. but then I can't find time alone for my thoughts.. My work schedule now doesn't allow me to have some extra time for doing things I used to do.


i remember, when I'm still at my previous work, I have lots time of doings things I want to do like these.. blogging.. reading.. chatting with my friend online.. surfing the net.. everything I want.. even during my work. Like I used to say before, I'm always on the "pethics mode" back there, it's because of the nature of my work. Until one day, I felt like I'm so bored to the point of resigning from my work there and started to find a job where I can be more productive. 


Now, I'm almost working for a year here in my new work. I'd like to think if I am successful with what I am looking for when I started to think of leaving my previous work. 


first.. before, I wanted to have a more compensated job so that I would be able to help more my family. Yes, a more compensated job compared before, but then I'm still not satisfied, still NOT ENOUGH for such obligations. But of course, I'm still thankful despite of that, like I said "compared before.. "


next.. I wanted to be more productive and more useful.. I don't want anymore a "no-brainy" job like other say, because in my previous work, you don't have to exert extra effort to do your job, it's just a typical admin-office task. More productive?.. YES!.. because you have to do your very best everyday to meet your productivity and quality targets set by the client. 


Nevertheless, I'm not saying that I don't enjoy my work in my previous job. Because at some point of time, I really did enjoy my work there. I can say that being busy there is like "seasonal". There's just a time when we have to really work. Also, i have some good memories back there plus having myself pampered for free because of the nature of the business.


But now, I can't even afford to have a normal sleep or to have some leisure time to enjoy or do things I want to do. Having a 4-5 hours of sleep everyday is something that you should be thankful of.. especially, when the company pushes production and we have to process health claims more than what we are expected to everyday because of the client demands. 


I just realized.. that we can never be satisfied with everything we want. Because whenever you achieved something, you are about to sacrificed something too and start to want something more than you wanted before.. 


that's it for today.. i hope i could find time to do things like this again.. ^_^