my circle of friends

It's good that you have lots of friends but I think the disadvantage about it is that you don't know how will you divide your time for all of them when each of them wants to go out with you and have some bonding time. Besides, going out out every now and then means " expenses " .. I can't afford to loose my everyday allowance to work if I would go out frequently.

normie and me

closed friend from my previous work @ SPI

closed friends from wave 18c Accenture

jayan, mariz and pia

ken and elehm

Accenture friends

Accenture friends

elehm, amie, pia, diane and chamsy

tyne and me in Bagiuo City

she's my friend from my previous work @ LET'S FACE IT

daisy, sheila, weng & michelle

my college friends

daisy and aimee, my best buddies during my college days

lhen and apple

high school friends

my bestfriend Lea when I was in 1st year high school

Please don't get me wrong. I missed you all guys. Promise I'll find time to have some bonding with each of you .. SOON !.. :D

thanks to facebook ..

If there's a person whom I considered as my bestfriend during my elementary days, that would be Marianne. I can't remember exactly what grade are we in that time, maybe it's either grade four or five. Actually, we also have other friend named Fatima, we're like tres marias.

It's been years ago.. I still remember them but it never occurred in my mind to find them on Facebook. Marianne added me on Facebook last night. As I saw her name, I instantly remembered her, it's like old memories that we're together came flashing on my mind. We chatted and exchanged numbers. I've learned that she's been married for four years but she doesn't have kids yet. We've sent also a friend request to Fatima and I hope she will accept it soon. I'm so excited to hear from her too. We're planning to meet again.

I wanted to put a picture of us when we're just a kid, but I couldn't find one. I wish I already had a camera phone back then.. :(

I'm so excited to see you guys soon!.. :D

Message from GOD..

Last April 17, 2012, I happened to read the message from the Facebook application GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW ..

" On this day, God wants you to know that difficult people are very important, - they teach you tolerance and acceptance. If all was going your way all the time, you would become a spoiled child, wouldn't everyone? Difficult people are just one of the ways God teaches us to expand beyond our egos and accept of other perspectives on life. "

What if I can no longer tolerate someone's attitude and I can't stand being with that person anymore? That someone happens to be the person who used to be my friend. Does that mean I failed to the test of God?

I admit, I used to enjoy her company and that we have lots of happy moments together before. But those were the times that I am still patient with all her mood swings, childish ways and being closed-mindedness. Those were the times that I can still tolerate everything about her that makes me annoyed.

Most of my friend told me that I do have a very long patience but everything has a limit. And with almost two years of our friendship, she already pushed me to the edge of my patience. I can't stand it anymore. Nowadays, I easily get irritated by her. I'm so impatient when it comes to her even in small things that I used to ignore. Most of the time, I speak up what's in my mind without thinking or worrying if it's okay to her or would it hurt her. I am so tired of worrying about her feelings, that it should always about her first and that I have to understand her at all times. With her, I can no longer feel that I am her friend, it's like I've been taking care a little child ever since and not having a friend.

Sometimes, I feel guilty with how I treat her nowadays because I am being so insensitive with her feelings. I remember the last time we fought, I told her everything why I am angry, she doesn't get the point I am trying to make her understand instead she told me that I, whom she considered and treated as friend don't understand her then, what more did she expect to other people around her? That if she can't depend on me because I can't stand her ways, then she can't depend to others as well. Maybe she was right...

I wanted to avoid her. I wanted us to be just as casual as possible, I am more comfortable that way. But at the same time, I am worried that if I leave her behind and continue avoiding her, who else would understand her?No one will be left with her as her friend. She doesn't have other friend anymore, our other friends have their own new circle of friends.

another attempt ..

One of my goals this year is to pursue work abroad . I have sent so many applications online since January but I haven't received any response until now.

Today is my another attempt to try to get a work abroad. I saw their ads last night, since I am on a vacation leave, I went to this agency just this afternoon. The job posting is for front office position to be deployed in Canada. They didn't indicate in the list of qualifications that an applicant should have a work experience in a hotel. So I assumed that I am still qualified for the position although my previous work experience is not exactly as the front office staff, I believe I am still capable to do the duties and responsibilities of the said position because part of my job before is also like a front office staff in Marketing Department. After the interview, they just told me that they will call me or text me as soon as my application is considered. haaaays ...

I always wanted to work abroad. That's my dream. That's my only hope and way to fulfill my parent's dream. I don't want it to be their forever dream or be forever frustrations. I'll do everything to make it happen.

Keep waiting. I need more patience. One day, soon, I'll be in that plane going somewhere in the world that is much better than I expected and wanted. :)

McArthur - a review ??.. ^_^

I just finished reading McArthur by Bob Ong last night. I was touched by the story that I almost cried. His approach on this book is quite different from his previous books that is known for his comic sidetrips as he tried to reveal the flaws in our society. This book is about sad realities of being poor and underprivileged in the country, about the wrong things that we keep on doing over and over again, stories about indecent policemen and the importance of education.

Bob Ong is just concern to us Filipinos and to the country, but not all people understands this. There are lots of close-minded people who takes it negatively the way he tackles about the flaws in our society and our wrong-doings.

"Dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. Kung di mo pagtitiyagaan, anak, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. Sobrang lugi. Kung alam lang yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko e walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela"

I remember my younger brother, he didn't want to go to school no matter what we do to pursue him to finish his studies. He's so focused on dancing, that's his only interest. We're so worried about his future if he will not finish his studies.

This is an attempt of having a review about Mcarthur by Bob Ong because I still have the hang-over after reading it. :)

survived three weeks and still counting .. :)

This week is my 4th week of my so-called "diet". Yes, I'm on a diet and I don't know until when will I be determined to continue what I have started. My goal is just to loose some weight and fats not really to be sexy or something. I don't want to rush things so I'm taking it slow. As I've always said, diet does not mean skipping meal. It's been three weeks ago since I started to lessen my rice intake, I only eat rice during lunch then two slices of wheat bread for my dinner. This part is really hard for me, because I'm really a rice person. But then, this past few days I got used to it, in fact I often loose my appetite in eating too much rice during lunch.

Gardenia Wheat Bread for my dinner .. :)

I'm glad to say that I succeeded. I already loose some weights and fats after three weeks. Most of my officemates noticed it even those who doesn't know that I am on diet. My tummy is a little smaller now compared before that I almost look like a 3 months-pregnant woman. My pants doesn't fit to me now.

I hope I could be as determined as I started so that I could continue this for the succeeding months. :)

my new found friends ...

Years ago, when I am being asked if I drink alcohol, I would answer right away "occasionally" .. Yes that's true! And that means, I only drink during birthdays, reunions, Christmas, New Year, etc. There has to be a reason for me when I'm having a drinking sessions with friends or relatives.

It was last year when I started hanging out and be part of my new found circle of friends. It was the time when I thought I don't have a friend at all and I found them. These are the people in the office that I thought I'll never be closed to (it was just my first impression, and again I'm wrong). I'm happy with them.

Nowadays, with or without reason, we usually have our drinking sessions plus videoke and food trip during weekends or Friday night after our work shift, either in a friend's house or in a bar just to have some fun or just to burn out the stress from work. Some might find this wrong or that we or they are not a good company to be with, but NO. They are just like any other individual people who just know how to enjoy life. In fact, they are nice and cool to be with. There's no such a dull moment when we're all together. From the first day I hanged out with them and until now, I can say that I already knew each and everyone's personality. They are good people who have good hearts too and like me, a family-oriented individuals.

my pending must-read books ..

Aside from the e-books saved in my laptop, which I still don't know when will I find time and start reading again. These are the books lined up for me to read.

MCARTHUR BY BOB ONG

I have already read some of his books that's why I want to read more of his works. I love his approach in delivering the message about reality, life, politics, etc. through his wits and humor.

DO YOU COME HERE OFTEN ? - ALEXANDRA POTTER

Alexandra Potter is my new found favorite author. I have read her " Who's that girl ? " and I find it fascinating. After that, I want to read more of her books.

Hopefully, this weekend I could start reading at least one of my pending must-read books. ^_^

constantly

This song is exactly how I feel ..

***

I knew it was there, though I tried to hide

The feeling just kept on shining on through

Haven't known you that long, so I try to deny it

But the feeling was much, too much, too strong ..

Could this be love deep down inside

Tearing me apart, I feel it in my heart

CHORUS:

Constantly, you're on my mind

Thinking about you all the time

I can't sleep no matter what I do

I just keep on thinking 'bout you

Why do I feel this way

When I know you have someone

That you're seeing in each and everyday

Should I played this game of just being your friend

When I know that's not where I want to end

How could this feel be wrong when the feeling is strong

Tearing me apart, I feel it my heart

(Repeat Chorus 2x)