i need a work-life balanced .. :(

One of my goals for this year is to seriously find a work abroad. It’s been a month now since I started sending applications online and yet, I haven’t received any good results until now. It’s like addiction, I always check my email, jobsreet and workabroad account everyday. I’m so impatient on waiting with regards to this. I’m so bored and stressed with my present work. I don’t feel motivated and inspired to work everyday. I want something new, something better, and something that would offer me a work-life balance.

Actually, I am also sending applications in some local job postings. I received a couple of responses through my email and mobile telling me that they are currently reviewing my application and they will just call me if I am short-listed. Last Tuesday, I received an invite for an interview and exam from a local company somewhere in Shaw blvd. Although, I am lack of sleep that day and to think that I am not really familiar to the place that I have to check on google map the exact location of the place, I still managed to go there for the interview and exam. The moment I arrived at the front of their building, I feel so uneasy, I don’t feel good with the company itself, I don’t know why. It took me a couple of seconds to finally go inside. I don’t like the ambience of the place, maybe because I’m used to our building that is big and pleasant. I don’t like the staffs, they’re not as accommodating and approachable unlike in the other companies I have applied before. After taking the exam, I was told to take my lunch and be back at around 1:30 in the afternoon for the interview but I just reasoned some alibis instead and told them to reschedule it next time. I went back straight to home after that, and told myself that I will not go back there if ever they would still consider my application. I think it’s not worth it, and I will not give up my present work for that.

Speaking of work-life balance, I seriously need it. Whenever someone asked me about something that is currently happening, or just about something news, I would just answer them “I don’t know”.. it’s because I don’t have time to watch TV because of my work schedule, the rest of my time is consumed for sleeping.. ( I worked from 5:00 PM to 2:00 AM ). When a high school or college friend asked me to go out, I refused to go with them because my time during weekdays is so tight, besides who would want to go out in the middle of their sleep time?.. Then in weekends, it’s either I am also sleeping to catch some sleep or I am online.

At the office, the company provides a recreational area in the 4^th floor of the building, they have gym, videoke room, billiards, table tennis and other activities for us. They even arranged activities such as summer outings and town halls in some occasions for us to have a work-life balanced. But then, it’s not enough. We want life, a real LIFE outside the office.

" MY THOUGHTS IN BARE" was born .. :D

Even when I was young, I always carry a small notebook wherever I go. I always enjoy putting my thought, ideas, experiences, emotions or anything into writing. I used to have a diary to put all those secret stuffs into writing. Writing it all down in a paper is like talking to someone, someone who is so close to you that you’re not afraid to open up everything.

It was 2009, when I started blogging. Actually, I was just influenced by my friend “normie” to start blogging. At first, it was a part of our communication apart from our exchange emails since she’s working abroad. It’s a one way of knowing each other’s life experiences and thoughts, we just don’t want to miss every detail of each other’s life while she’s away.

From the time I am starting to work with my blog, I did have a hard time on thinking about what should I call it, what should be my header on my blog site. From the very start, I know that it would be like an online journal to me, yet I can’t think of any proper words to be the name of my blog that can specifically describe what it’s all about. I already forgot the previous names I thought before. Normie suggested “MY THOUGHTS IN BARE” (another compliment to her.. ^_^) which I agreed immediately.

THOUGHTS. From the root word “thought” which is the past tense and past participle of think. A thought is an idea that you have in your mind. It is one person’s mind, ideas, opinion and beliefs in particular thing.

BARE. It is a part of you that is not covered of anything.

Since blogging would be like an online journal to me, it would consist of my mix ideas, thoughts and emotions, meaning the whole ME. Me without inhibitions to uncover and show how I think and feel. That’s the time “MY THOUGHTS IN BARE” was born.

From a simple medium of communication to my friend, I eventually enjoyed more the means of blogging. Thinking and writing different ideas not just to update her about me but as part of my hobby.

the singer in me .. :)

I always wanted to learn to play a guitar. Way back in my high school days, someone taught me some basics of playing a guitar before. For some reasons, I stopped my guitar lessons. And as I grow, the thought of learning it again always slips through my head. As of now, I haven’t made any action of how will I pursue it again. First, I don’t have my own guitar and I have to save some money for me to buy that. Next, the problem is, NO ONE will teach me. I know someone who would be willing to teach me just for free, but I was kinda hesitate of that for some personal reasons. So maybe I better find someone else if ever I would really pursue it.

Apart from it, next is I always wanted to be a singer (this is just a little dream inside of me and I know far from reality.. hehe). I wanted to experience singing in a stage, just like the singers or pop stars. Singing in a stage while playing a guitar like Miley Cyrus, Taylor Swift and Avril Lavigne. I love music. I know how to sing but not the kind of singer voice quality. Singing in a videoke or in music bars is my favorite hang-out with my sister, cousins and friends. It’s like you already knew what song you’re going to sing at the moment you’re in front of a videoke machine and then later on not letting go of the microphone. I guess it would always be just a dream. :)

I remember last month, we went in Music Bank located at the Macapagal Avenue with my cousins. I must say that it’s the best KTV music bar I ever seen. They have organized and wide selection song books. Super clean air-conditioned KTV room, modern equipments plus they have microphone caps, so you won’t be infected from the previous user of the mic. They may even give you a complimentary food, a big tray of different sliced fruits as way of thanking the customers (take note: it’s the boss who’ll personally deliver the complimentary food.. nice ! ) It’s best to go there especially if you’re a large group who wanted and enjoy singing like me.