i need a work-life balanced .. :(

One of my goals for this year is to seriously find a work abroad. It’s been a month now since I started sending applications online and yet, I haven’t received any good results until now. It’s like addiction, I always check my email, jobsreet and workabroad account everyday. I’m so impatient on waiting with regards to this. I’m so bored and stressed with my present work. I don’t feel motivated and inspired to work everyday. I want something new, something better, and something that would offer me a work-life balance.

Actually, I am also sending applications in some local job postings. I received a couple of responses through my email and mobile telling me that they are currently reviewing my application and they will just call me if I am short-listed. Last Tuesday, I received an invite for an interview and exam from a local company somewhere in Shaw blvd. Although, I am lack of sleep that day and to think that I am not really familiar to the place that I have to check on google map the exact location of the place, I still managed to go there for the interview and exam. The moment I arrived at the front of their building, I feel so uneasy, I don’t feel good with the company itself, I don’t know why. It took me a couple of seconds to finally go inside. I don’t like the ambience of the place, maybe because I’m used to our building that is big and pleasant. I don’t like the staffs, they’re not as accommodating and approachable unlike in the other companies I have applied before. After taking the exam, I was told to take my lunch and be back at around 1:30 in the afternoon for the interview but I just reasoned some alibis instead and told them to reschedule it next time. I went back straight to home after that, and told myself that I will not go back there if ever they would still consider my application. I think it’s not worth it, and I will not give up my present work for that.

Speaking of work-life balance, I seriously need it. Whenever someone asked me about something that is currently happening, or just about something news, I would just answer them “I don’t know”.. it’s because I don’t have time to watch TV because of my work schedule, the rest of my time is consumed for sleeping.. ( I worked from 5:00 PM to 2:00 AM ). When a high school or college friend asked me to go out, I refused to go with them because my time during weekdays is so tight, besides who would want to go out in the middle of their sleep time?.. Then in weekends, it’s either I am also sleeping to catch some sleep or I am online.

At the office, the company provides a recreational area in the 4^th floor of the building, they have gym, videoke room, billiards, table tennis and other activities for us. They even arranged activities such as summer outings and town halls in some occasions for us to have a work-life balanced. But then, it’s not enough. We want life, a real LIFE outside the office.